Pregnancy & Birth

Finding out I was pregnant caught me completely off guard. Obviously I wasn’t being carful, but it was not something I had planned for myself. I honestly feel like it was divine intervention in a way, I was heading down a dangerous path and hanging out with the wrong people around that time, and this pregnancy put a dead stop to that. My boyfriend and I had only knew each other for 3 months when we found out I was pregnant. I remember the day I took the test, I went into the bathroom of a kava bar we went to all the time and ran out to my car to wait for the results. When I saw the positive test, my heart dropped. I immediately starting bawling and a million things were running through my head. Will I be a good mom? Does Rhett even want a child? We hardly know each other, am I going to be raising this child myself? And a million other questions. That night when he got off work, we were driving in the car, me in the passenger seat and he could tell something was off. He kept asking me what was wrong and I didn’t know how to tell him. I couldn’t find my words and I was so scared for his reaction. Finally I just said it “I’m pregnant”. He started spiraling, he put his hand on his head and kept saying “omg” “omg”. And then he said that it can’t be his, that I had to of slept with someone else. Which I obviously didn’t take very well. We had spent every day together from the first time we hung out, we just never stopped. Besides work we were always together. In his defense we met 3 months prior. Eventually about 10 mins late once the shock wore off, he apologized and said he knew that wasn’t the case, he was just freaking out. Honestly, I completely understood his reaction. The next few days I was a complete mess, I was crying constantly, and I remember him saying to “you’re making it really hard to be excited with how miserable you are” and in that moment all the fear lifted off of me and I said “you’re excited?” and he said yeah I’ve always wanted to be a dad. He didn’t think he could have kids. He never pictured himself having a child but always wanted one. I was honestly the opposite I never wanted to have a kid, I had been saying that my whole life. But in that moment for the first time since taking the test, I was so excited to have this baby.

Being pregnant was one of the happiest times of my life. I had a very easy pregnancy. I remember the first and only time I puked, I was on my way home from work and started feeling nauseous. When I got home I ran to the bathroom and threw up, I immediately texted Rhett so excited to tell him that our baby finally said hello. I was so lucky to have such an amazing person to experience that with. Even though it was the start of our relationship, it felt like I had known him forever. And it was just a very blissful time in our lives.

We both decided that we wanted to have a natural water birth. We decided to get a midwife at a birthing center. The birthing center was such a beautiful place, it had private birthing rooms, with a giant tub, a bed, bathroom, adjustable lighting and you could even make a birthing playlist. Something that was extremely important to Rhett and I was having complete control over my birth and for it to be a very intimate and calm experience from start to finish. The midwife that I wanted schedule did not align with my due date, so I got assigned to the other midwife that worked at the center. At first I really loved this woman and was so excited. But after a few visits with her I got this feeling that she didn’t like me, and treated me like I was someone who saw water birth on Instagram and didn’t know what I was getting myself into. I remember there were times after my appointments where she would make me feel so uncomfortable and hurt my feelings so bad, that I would go out to my car crying and call my mom. I wanted to get a different midwife, but I was already about 4 months pregnant and we had paid a lot of money, so I didn’t want to switch. I kept telling myself that it was my hormones. A woman should always trust her gut especially when you have your child growing inside of you.

At about 5-6 months pregnant I started getting really itchy everywhere, especially my hands and feet. I called my midwife to set up an appointment. For this appointment I got to see the midwife that I originally wanted. She took my blood and ordered me a 24/hr pee catch to pick up from the lab. When I got the results I was told that my liver enzymes were a little elevated, but nothing serious and not to worry. She told me to drink dandelion tea and to let her know if it got worse. Things got way worse, I was up all night itching everywhere, I couldn’t sleep or relax, it was driving me insane. So, I called my midwife to set up another appointment to take my labs. I later found out that lab was never sent to the lab.

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It all begins with an idea. Maybe you want to launch a business. Maybe you want to turn a hobby into something more. Or maybe you have a creative project to share with the world. Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference.

Don’t worry about sounding professional. Sound like you. There are over 1.5 billion websites out there, but your story is what’s going to separate this one from the rest. If you read the words back and don’t hear your own voice in your head, that’s a good sign you still have more work to do.

Be clear, be confident and don’t overthink it. The beauty of your story is that it’s going to continue to evolve and your site can evolve with it. Your goal should be to make it feel right for right now. Later will take care of itself. It always does.

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It all begins with an idea. Maybe you want to launch a business. Maybe you want to turn a hobby into something more. Or maybe you have a creative project to share with the world. Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference.

Don’t worry about sounding professional. Sound like you. There are over 1.5 billion websites out there, but your story is what’s going to separate this one from the rest. If you read the words back and don’t hear your own voice in your head, that’s a good sign you still have more work to do.

Be clear, be confident and don’t overthink it. The beauty of your story is that it’s going to continue to evolve and your site can evolve with it. Your goal should be to make it feel right for right now. Later will take care of itself. It always does.